Tuesday, June 07, 2005

its nearly 3 again (see my prev) entry and i'm having great difficulties trying to complete my third resume of the day, simply because-i'm lazy. planning to go have lunch with my ex-colleagues at 'rice table' later today, but i'm not very sure if its halal. i'd prob miss lunch and join them afterwards. the only reason why i'm meeting them is cos, well, firstly cos they've been nice to me during my term working with them, and since one of them is flying off to japan to teach english there (lucky gal), we're kinda having a bye-bye lunch thingy for her. the other reason being i might have future postings in the school, thus i feel the need to keep up appearances. so i'm not exactly sincere, well sue me, at least i dare to admit it.
have had enough of being jobless for a while already, and i know i dun have the right to complain since i'm not putting full effort in looking for one, though i dare say, if i do send resumes, chances are i'd be granted an interview, i have a kick-ass cover letter, made nearly-perfect by the sheer number of man-hours i spend tweaking it these past yr.
god knows i need the money, i need to start shopping for real, not just window shopping. (these days i avoid the major shopping belts cos its really annoying to see stuff, pick them up and put them down repeatedly). and i need to save up for future plans on my wishlist. i want to contribute to my family, its been a yr, and tho my parents still ask me if i need pocket money, i want to be independent. i want to be able to afford stuff. i want a job. at the same time, i want a job which i can see myself doing, not finding myself dragging to work everyday. i reckon, if i'm gonna have to spend the next few years of my life wasted there, i want to be able to do something i like, at least something i could live with.
enuf for now..
angst-ridden yana sleepy as opposed to being hot n sweaty n drenched n tired.. s seen below..

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