for whatever its worth..

note to self:

1. try not to be mean to sis

nuff said. i think i m a mean little sis. i think sis can be pretty irritating sometimes. but i also know she wont do anything to purposely hurt me.


2. control bouts of occasional temper, esp to mummy

really they say, u dun know someone til uve seen their temper. i dun flare up that often anymore.
maturity, tolerance, coming of age, mebbe.
a conscious attempt not to take family members for granted after granny's gone, definitely.
but when i do flare up, oh boy... its shameful. shameful.


3. stop berating self for buying the first nirvana album, consubsequent nirvana albums n 'kapok' brand guitar years ago. bro is prob a lot happier strumming than studying

i cant count how many times over the past yrs, i ve asked myself the restropective 'what-ifs'.
then i learn: everyone bears the repercussions of his own judgements. only him, not anyone else. bro is prob happier doing what he does best, as long as its not at the expense of anyone else, that is.
i learn to trust.
i learn to cut him some slack.
i learn to let go more.


4. talk to daddy more
5. go out with daddy and dun play dumb when daddy hints he wants me to accompany him

i know, more matter how old i m, in my daddy's eyes, i m still his little girl. and he'll always dote on me and love me and spoil me rotten. poor daddy, his little girl is growing up (or so she thinks) and he must be feeling increasingly sidelined..