Friday, September 09, 2005

sigh... was watching m'sia channel just now. the documentary show did a special coverage on life in refugee camps at some parts of lebanon, the civil war-strikened country for 15 yrs since 1975. the people were poverty-stricken while the places visited had poor hygiene levels and were too packed, considering the area's size had remained the same through the yrs but the population had definitely increased. they still had remains of buidings half-bombed and strewn with bullet holes. even with all these grim visuals, i dun think i could have visualised the impact of the civil war fully unless i was there.

but the thing that touched me most was a clip of this lady whose children (3 of them) were killed in a massacre 23 yrs ago, the oldest being just 13 yrs old. she was crying non-stop, alternating between wiping her tears and kissing the potrait of her 11 yr-old son. she recalled the night when the zionist troops massacred the city and barged into her house before dawn. she was one of the survivors who saw all her children being slaughtered with her own eyes and heard her 9-yr old daughter wailing for her to help before whoever-it-was cut her head off.

imagine a mother having to witness her children killed like tat..

i mean... i know nothing of politics. i dun know why all these wars started. i dunno was caused it and who's to blame. i dun know enough to be on any side either. but despite my ignorance and naive, callow view on the issue, i think, no matter the religion, race or country u originate from, when u hear a mother speak of her loss like that, u feel her pain too. and u wanna reach out and hug her and wish u erase some of the pain away, much as u know u cant.

and for a while, if only the littlest bit, u understand why she prays for doom on her enemies; her voice filled with anger, hatred and revenge for the pain that not even a lifetime, yet alone 23 yrs, of crying can erase. for her, its personal.

its just awfully sad and just awfully wrong...

r.z 5:45 PM  0 comments