Sunday, April 23, 2006

if i were to be in a line of work that i loathe, i would resign even before having secured another job-i think i would, and in fact, i did just tat. its not cos i m a quitter, but i cant fathom having to do something i not only have no interest or find any future prospect in, but i detest as much as overly layered hairstyles.

there is a difference.

while i still think it sucks to be in a job that you have no interest in, loathing your work with your every sinew will compromise nothing short of your sanity.

in my prev job, it used to be sooo bad, i punctuate nearly my every sentence with work, i had nightmares bout it and my heart palpitates faster than my chosen mode of transport every morning all the way to work.

after 3 short months, 2 kg lighter and 1 taxi ride that had me sobbing silently at the back seat all the way home, i decided to wipe my hands, my tears and then the mucus on my nose and finally lempar in the towel for good. itu pun, i nearly change my mind when my supervisor advised me otherwise, telling a very surprised yana how she thought i had been doing well in my work.

but anyways, the point is, i have never been more glad bout my decision, albeit the moments of wondering if i was just being a sissy or if i should just grit my teeth n bear it.

i m the kind who dun mind those no-brainer jobs. not even those boring admin jobs with fancy titles that have you going through the routines day in, day out like a robot. in fact, i might find the monotony somewhat therapeutic, like shaping dough with the cookie cutter or making pineapple tarts, or sealing envelopes. just as long as i dun loathe the job, can liao.

the reason why i bring this up is cos, in a recent sit-n-bitch sessions with the gals, i made a somewhat startling revelation. all these girls find their jobs stressful. they think and dream about work, and when theyre not dreaming bout it, they lose sleep over it.

now, i can already see some people going "like, duh! what do you expect..." and then rolling their eyes and proceed to close this window, but....... well......... nvm......

i just wonder, if being tat stressed up is so normal, does it mean what i went through with my previous job was nothing outta the ordinary and i was in fact being the whiny quitter? i still dun think so. i think i wasnt cut out for the line.

i suppose if u enjoy what you do, putting in those extra hours wouldnt be that dreadful to you anymore. however, if the workload is too much to handle, you wont have time to enjoy your job either. but then again, if you have reached a certain level of qualification, you cant expect your job offers to be a walk in the park now, can u?

it just got me thinking: as much as i enjoy my current job, would i enjoy it as much if the workload is (at the very least) tripled and i hardly have room to breathe?

someone dear to me is experiencing the work blues, and as with any of my loved ones, when they are feeling less than perfect, you just wanna chase their blues away, even when you have no idea how to.

those of you who swear you have had enough of studying and are wishing you could be working and paying for your designer goods instead, think again, dears. working your arse off for the rest of your life paying off all kinds of loans is not entirely very shiok either, you know.

r.z 12:06 AM  0 comments