Friday, September 01, 2006

this week alone, i've been bubbled 3 times.

i faithfully came early or stayed back way after my lessons, and that was when they informed me they couldn't make it.
#%$^#$@@!#&!#!*!- words escape me.
not very nice. not nice at all. granted, if you have some good reasons, that's forgiveable. but if you just need to move the timing to another day, then its plain courtesy that you tell me earlier.
dopes.
what still surprised me was how i pretended its all cool when in fact its so-not! and indeed i had every reason to scold them upside down. this is another one of those instances where i ended up feeling i should kick myself in the back for not giving them a piece of my mind when they clearly had none.

meek? maybe, but not without a cause. its a concious choice to play it cool cos:

1. i hardly know them. we haven't even had our first meeting yet, and i don't want to start off with bad vibes, so i'm giving them the benefit of the doubt til we know each other better.

2. its 3 against 1, for heaven's sake! (ok, so i am meek that way)
let's see how it goes.

i know what i want from this course. the difference between my 4-yr nus and this one is clear: genuine interest.
and for that, i am prepared to give my best.
not to the point of being overzealous or a kiasu suakoo, but rather to get as much scaffolding, and as many of my queries answered before i start applying them. my concern is more targeted to the application of all these knowledge, which is far more important than grades. but of cos getting through this course is the only way for me to apply it hands-on, so get through this i must.
as geeky as this may sound, despite my occasional grumbling, all these work is very exciting for me. (i know-i can't believe i just said that, either.)

i guess its because for the past yr plus, i had so many questions i wanted to know related to teaching, so many things i so badly wanted to understand. if you could understand that sort of wanting, maybe you would understand why i'm acting like one eager beaver these days. of cos, not anywhere near the topmost eager beavers (they are mostly the middle-aged ones), but eager enough for this slow sloth.

this is finally the chance for me to thrash things out, so i will. and dun mind if i do.

r.z 10:08 PM  0 comments