Monday, September 25, 2006

.. grey anatomy has gotta be one of the greatest shows i've watched of late. nvm that i dun watch that many a show on tv, if at all, during the past months. (i watched lotsa you tube though). All (or no) thanks to Huifang who unwittingly triggered me on a fervent hunt for my Ranma 1/2 .

so muslims here have started fasting since yesterday. which means yet another year have passed since the last Ramadhan.
just like that. like, snap! like that.
i wouldn't know what hit me. and that scares me, time passing by so fast. not because i am afraid of getting old, but specifically because the older i get, the more distant i feel from Him and that saddens me.

we have a choice.
we might not necessarily have the cake and eat it too, but we always have a choice.

somewhere last week, reality hits home when my coughing dad mentioned a passing remark, that in the future, i should visit him sometimes if he isn't feeling well. (to which i promptly told him off for sprouting such nonsense). but right about then, it hits home that my parents are getting old and i may not be there 24-7 to tend to them in their golden years.
i so want to.
i only have one father and a mother (yes, i know. i haven't forgotten that you do too.) and i jolly well treasure them while i still can.

yes, i would be moving out of my comfort zone when we wed. at times, that rattles me a little. we would most probably staying at his place until we get our own house.

things are moving so fast that sometimes i wonder if i might get too caught up with the whole series of events that i forget to live. like, really LIVE. that doesn't necessarily equate to dropping everything and going backpacking in Tuvalu tomorrow, but rather to spend each day as fully as i can. to be able take a step back and take stock. to contemplate, reassess and move on. or carry on.

carpe diem: not easy, but i sure will try.

i have learned a great deal of things these past few months, beyond the books and flying notes, i have learned more about myself and what i am made of.
and that is precious stuff.

r.z 11:58 PM  0 comments