Tuesday, December 12, 2006

i'm totally wasting my free time. for the next 18 days, let me continue pretending i'm making up for the non-sleep and rapid-finger-movement syndrome the past 6 months. they say pretense and denial is part schizoprenic, part depression.... ok fine, i entirely made that up. i would believe myself completely if i whimsically stated that i keyed in as many words last sem as i did for my thesis.
i'm totally wasting my free time. there it is again: the obvious understatement. today is a special day simply because i'm up at this ungodly hour when the sun is directly above my lovely head. on more blissful days, i'd still be smelly and unconcious 3 hours before sunset. yes, i acknowledge that no excuse could pass off as a reason (not even if i dress them up) for my mostly-immobile state of happiness. if it makes you feel better, i do get nightmares from time to time. its not an all smooth-sailing love affair with the matress, you know.
the fiance is down with something. i dunno what it is, and frankly i think, neither does he. cos he is one of the most degil fellow i know who would do the exact opposite of what i tell him to (in this case, its going to the doctor). on days when i think too much, i'd almost think it's intentional.
despite his stomach trouble and vomitting yesterday, he wants to go to escape theme park. sometimes, i think he's crazy. i'm not going to share the same rides as him, that much is certain. i'll take the earlier rides, just in case.
i've a decision to make. its either kl or bangkok. i don't want both. already, me thinks the choice is obvious.
i'm totally wasting my free time. i'll go bug im now ( "oh. i'd like to thank you," he said. for what? "For waking me up." ... ... ... ...) i'll go read my notes now. i'll go bake chocolate muffins now. i'll go snip off my split ends now. i'll go smell my pillows now, definitely now. the rest can wait.
sweet dreams, all.

r.z 12:29 PM  0 comments